Relationships ...

I have always said that relationships were over-rated. As I was growing up, I could never get my head around the idea of staying with just one person forever and not wanting anyone else. And if Im honest, I still cant. When all my friends at school were hooking up with cute guys, I wasnt interested. I never understood why they wanted to waste their time with these stupid boys.

Im pretty sure youre all expecting me to now say, that now I get it, now I understand the idea of monogamy. But I dont. I still dont get it. I dont understand how there can only be one person for one person. I think some of us arent designed to just stick with a single person. And I think Im one of those people.

I have been in a relationship for about 7 months now, That, to me, is like a lifetime. Admittedly, my previous relationship spanned a number of years but that was due to circumstances. Before him, my longest was about 9 months.

I get bored you see, Im so very easily bored. So after the excitement of new relationships wears off, my eye begins to wander. My mind starts to imagine a different life. A single life. A life where I have no responsibilities, where I wouldnt have to consider others feelings before I decided to do something. A life where I could kiss whoever I wanted and not have to deal with the repercussions that came with that!

I think ideally, I want the best of both worlds. I want to have my cake and eat it too. But ironically, I dont believe in cheating. I wish it was acceptable, but I wouldnt do it. Perfect relationship for me, would be for me to be able to go out, see who I wanted to, but have someone waiting for me when I got home. Only if I felt like it though.

Its the most selfish thing ever of course and I know that its just not possible, and I would never really expect it off anyone but ya know, in an ideal world ...