I thought 2010 was gonna be 'my year'. I thought I had put the past in the past and I was moving on. How wrong could I be? This last year had its share of ups and downs but the downs totally outweighed the ups. And it always boils down to the same two reasons. The common themes running throughout the majority of my posts. Its either money, or the ex.
I have plans to sort both of these things out over the next few months. I'm not going to limit myself to a strict time frame but for my own peace of mind I have to at least try and have a vague deadline.
In fact, I have plans to overhaul my whole life.
I think Ive managed to work out my budget and will be sorting out any debts I have asap, they're first priority. And once they're sorted I can hopefully actually manage to save up so I can move out of this flat and into a house with a garden, or a yard at the very least! Somewhere where the kids have space outside but they're fenced in!
I have considered moving away from my home but I'm not sure if I can actually do that yet. There are a few factors that would keep me around here but I have to weigh up a lot of things before that decision would be made.
Next on the list is a counselling course. Ive said it a load of times before but I really think that I could do this. Not to sound big-headed but I do seem to have a knack/skill for advising people well. I am a good listener, I know that, I do genuinely listen, and most of the time, I genuinely care and want to help. (Yes, I say most of the time coz there are some people that think they have issues/problems when they really don't.) But I have to work out if I can afford to do it before I can get stuck in to that.
Another new thing on the list is to get a job. I saw an ad a few weeks back for a cleaner a few mornings a week. No, don't laugh, I know at suck at my own housework but doing it somewhere/for someone else has never been a problem for me. Probably weird but who cares. Anyways, if the hours were suitable and I could work the kids nursery around work times then that'd be a few extra quid in my pocket which would be nice.
I need to learn to drive again. I still know the basics from all the lessons I had like 10 years ago, but was unable to pass my test - well, my 4 tests but we wont talk about those. I couldn't believe the price of a provisional licence tho! Yeah so that wont be sorted until the finances are.
And there's that recurring money theme back again.
There is something else that I really hope works out well over the next few months, and of course hopefully longer. But I don't want to say too much about that until I know what it is myself. I'm enjoying it immensely though, I know that much.
I actually think that my absolute main priority is to sort out my situation with the ex once and for all. Other things will be held back because of that and I'm fed up of that happening. Not entirely sure how I'm going to go about that, all I know is that I have to get out and maybe away, once and for all. Its been just over 3 years since we broke up and we've gone through just as much in those 3 years as if we were together but made it worse coz we weren't and I am so done with it now. I think Ive done enough for him now. Hes a grown up ffs, well, in age anyways.
And I want my life back.
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