Catch up

Hey hey. Well now, it *has* been a while hasn't it? I feel so much has happened since I posted last. Most of it good too.
Its weird, I almost don't feel like posting when I'm happy, as if this blog is purely for miserable, depressing rants about how shit my life is.Which is basically what it has been since it started. Its been terribly therapeutic too. But I think now is the time for me to start posting the happy instead of just feeling it.
Lets see, first things first an all that, I think I am 90% free. I'm feeling the most independent and single than I have for the last 10 years. I make my own decisions without having to consult someone first. I can walk round my flat naked if I want to and not care about who might come out of a room at the wrong time. I feel happy. (Mostly) Truly happy for the fist time in about 8 years.
And honestly? I don't know what the fuck to do with it. I don't know how to be happy anymore! I am fully aware how sad and pathetic that sounds, and that I should just accept the happy and get on with it. BUT, I mean, I don't know where to direct it. At the moment I'm all about bouncing round the place, singing and dancing to myself, I love it. I'm constantly laughing at some joke I make to myself and then laughing at myself for being an idiot. I want to share it, I want to make someone else feel happy too. I want to dance around and laugh and joke with other people.
That's my task for this week, I HAVE to get back in touch with a couple of old mates, Ive put it off and procrastinated because Ive been nervous. Nervous of what they will think when we meet up again, nervous of what I will say, even though I have seen them for about 10 years and have plenty of stuff that we can talk about and nervous about what they will think of me. As you know, I haven't had the best experience with 'friends' recently and i know that all people are different and these girls are friends that I made coz I wanted to, not because they were family of people that I was sharing my life with at the time. So it should be easier and I really shouldn't have anything to worry about, but I do. So yes, that will be my task for this week.
Hmm, what else has gone on? Well, there is something, but I don't actually want to talk about that just yet. Don't want to tempt fate or make an arse of myself by getting the wrong end of the stick or what. I'm not sure if the person involved reads this so I think Id be better off saying nothing for now, sorry for the crypticness but its (hopefully) a good thing.
There isn't really much else that I can think of for now. See what i mean about not having much to say when I'm happy?
I'm gonna leave it there coz I got shit to do. I do plan on making more happy happy joy joy posts but when my brain is working a little better.

Oh, Sundays still suck.